Day 60, Two-months post surgery.
I can't believe this surgery is two months behind me. I can't say that I am used to my new shape and proportions, and I am still grappling with how my favorite clothing is fitting. But what I can definitely appreciate is my ability to get up and move, sit and stand, without thinking about it. I can now breathe and move without wincing or preparing my mind for discomfort upon changing position. It is a relief.
But as things change...things are changing. As I was getting more range of motion, I began to have 'cording' which is common. So I needed to have Physical Therapy. I, then, began therapy but now I can't sleep without pain because things are shifting my spine. I am beginning to feel nerves reconnecting. Some of the numbness is going away but now I get shocking pains under my arms where nerve endings are reaching out. One thing changes and another thing pops up.
I completed therapy but that wasn't solving my spine issue, so I needed to see a Chiropractor for sessions to help. Then I saw a Lymphatic Drainage specialist and Massage Therapist. It's a lot. But, how can I not? I appreciate the ability to have services close by and the financial resources to seek their help. I can't imagine going through this without help.
I can't believe this surgery is two months behind me. I can't say that I am used to my new shape and proportions, and I am still grappling with how my favorite clothing is fitting. But what I can definitely appreciate is my ability to get up and move, sit and stand, without thinking about it. I can now breathe and move without wincing or preparing my mind for discomfort upon changing position. It is a relief.
But as things change...things are changing. As I was getting more range of motion, I began to have 'cording' which is common. So I needed to have Physical Therapy. I, then, began therapy but now I can't sleep without pain because things are shifting my spine. I am beginning to feel nerves reconnecting. Some of the numbness is going away but now I get shocking pains under my arms where nerve endings are reaching out. One thing changes and another thing pops up.
I completed therapy but that wasn't solving my spine issue, so I needed to see a Chiropractor for sessions to help. Then I saw a Lymphatic Drainage specialist and Massage Therapist. It's a lot. But, how can I not? I appreciate the ability to have services close by and the financial resources to seek their help. I can't imagine going through this without help.
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So, what am I doing now? Physically, I am exercising and stretching everyday to increase range of motion and rebuild strength. I am following that path of giving attention to whatever pops up. For enjoyment? I am sketching whenever I can. It is both stimulating and relaxing as well. It is exciting to surround myself with others who are creating art, or exploring sketching for themselves. I was honored and proud to be a part of an Urban Sketchers of Michigan Exhibit at the Art's Council of White Lake Nuveen Center in September.
Personally, I am continuing to work, to help pay off the dozens of bills totaling thousands of dollars I've accumulated over the last few months. This year has been a costly one. But this little cancer adventure has brought to the forefront benefits as well. It is a realization of the need to be open with loved ones, and grasp opportunities that show themselves. Hopefully we don't go back to taking each other for granted, and we remember to live each day as if it is a gift. I believe we can only do what we can do, love who we can love, and move our bodies the best we can.
I'm working on it.
Personally, I am continuing to work, to help pay off the dozens of bills totaling thousands of dollars I've accumulated over the last few months. This year has been a costly one. But this little cancer adventure has brought to the forefront benefits as well. It is a realization of the need to be open with loved ones, and grasp opportunities that show themselves. Hopefully we don't go back to taking each other for granted, and we remember to live each day as if it is a gift. I believe we can only do what we can do, love who we can love, and move our bodies the best we can.
I'm working on it.
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